My stubborn tears.....

This is something that affected me recently. I wrote everything that I was keeping inside. After writing this,
I decided to come to a strong decision.


I could have cried when I was born, like what many will do.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear, what I did was, piss on the nurse's face.

Young kids will cry when their ear is pierced. Some does this for religious purposes.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear, when it was done to me.
Instead, I kicked the guy who pierced me.

In kindergarten when I was bullied by bullies.
Almost cried, but I did any shed any tear.
Instead, I whacked that guy and got into trouble.

Children will be scared to see the principle for doing something wrong.
I had to experience that for whacking that bully.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.

In primary school, there were racist idiots who caused trouble for me.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Instead, I opened my mouth and scolded them.

I was scolded by all teachers for being naughty.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Did not actually bothered.

In primary three, I did very badly in studies.
And went to a bad class in primary four.
Almlost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Instead I worked hard and went to the first class in the following year.

I was not feeling well. I was vomiting.
I felt sick and screwed up my story telling compeition.
Felt useless, Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.

In primary five I was bullied for being short.
Felt like I do not have that looks.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.

During one of my shootings, my director scolded
me infront of everyone. Felt humiliated. Almost cried,
but I did not shed any tear. Instead, I finished two pages script in a single take
and got complimented by the same director.

I did badly for my PSLE prelims. Felt like I am useless.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Instead I did better for PSLE and got what I wanted.

In secondary school, there was a time when I was hopeless.
Because I didn't have CCA, but fall in love with a CCA.
Incidents seemed like I will not get it.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear. Instead, I found my first love.
NCC Air.

I was once wrongly selected by my Flight sergeant as the best cadet.
I could not even march, and everyone provoked me.
Got humiliated. Almost cried. but I did not shed any tear.
Instead I learnt more from my senior.
And soon mastered more things than some of the people there.

In Sec two, I fall in love with a girl. Stayed with her for quite a time.
Broke up with her cause she was a bitch who went after another idiot.
Almost cried, but did not shed any tear.
Instead I turned back and made her life hell.

In Sec three, I got an lousy post in NCC,
I was criticized by another idiot.
Almost cried, but did not shed any tear.
Instead, I worked hard and got a better post.

I continued to do things, irregardless of humiliations I faced.
Loved this CCA and believed I will get what i deserve.
Senior Spec selection came, and fate turned against me.
Almost cried, but I could never control it.
Without realizing, I shed that tear that was stubborn all along.
The tears are still going on. But, I still believe that I will get, what I should get. [ure gripped]