My stubborn tears.....

This is something that affected me recently. I wrote everything that I was keeping inside. After writing this,
I decided to come to a strong decision.


I could have cried when I was born, like what many will do.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear, what I did was, piss on the nurse's face.

Young kids will cry when their ear is pierced. Some does this for religious purposes.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear, when it was done to me.
Instead, I kicked the guy who pierced me.

In kindergarten when I was bullied by bullies.
Almost cried, but I did any shed any tear.
Instead, I whacked that guy and got into trouble.

Children will be scared to see the principle for doing something wrong.
I had to experience that for whacking that bully.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.

In primary school, there were racist idiots who caused trouble for me.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Instead, I opened my mouth and scolded them.

I was scolded by all teachers for being naughty.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Did not actually bothered.

In primary three, I did very badly in studies.
And went to a bad class in primary four.
Almlost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Instead I worked hard and went to the first class in the following year.

I was not feeling well. I was vomiting.
I felt sick and screwed up my story telling compeition.
Felt useless, Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.

In primary five I was bullied for being short.
Felt like I do not have that looks.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.

During one of my shootings, my director scolded
me infront of everyone. Felt humiliated. Almost cried,
but I did not shed any tear. Instead, I finished two pages script in a single take
and got complimented by the same director.

I did badly for my PSLE prelims. Felt like I am useless.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear.
Instead I did better for PSLE and got what I wanted.

In secondary school, there was a time when I was hopeless.
Because I didn't have CCA, but fall in love with a CCA.
Incidents seemed like I will not get it.
Almost cried, but I did not shed any tear. Instead, I found my first love.
NCC Air.

I was once wrongly selected by my Flight sergeant as the best cadet.
I could not even march, and everyone provoked me.
Got humiliated. Almost cried. but I did not shed any tear.
Instead I learnt more from my senior.
And soon mastered more things than some of the people there.

In Sec two, I fall in love with a girl. Stayed with her for quite a time.
Broke up with her cause she was a bitch who went after another idiot.
Almost cried, but did not shed any tear.
Instead I turned back and made her life hell.

In Sec three, I got an lousy post in NCC,
I was criticized by another idiot.
Almost cried, but did not shed any tear.
Instead, I worked hard and got a better post.

I continued to do things, irregardless of humiliations I faced.
Loved this CCA and believed I will get what i deserve.
Senior Spec selection came, and fate turned against me.
Almost cried, but I could never control it.
Without realizing, I shed that tear that was stubborn all along.
The tears are still going on. But, I still believe that I will get, what I should get. [ure gripped]

hopeless people like me...

Like you know I just started on this "habit", and I'm typing my second posting. Gosh ! what to do? I was studying like mad for about ( if I'm not wrong) six plus hours. Tomorrow is my Geog and Lit. I don't know what to study for Lit thereore I decided to crash course tomorrow if there is anything to study. But not bad, I studied Geography like mad. Ya who wants to know about what I am studying? Boring right? But....while I was studying there were distractions ( like always ). You know that's the thing, you want to study but there will be something distracting you. Something distracted me too. "Someone" smsed me while studying. Don't think my girlfriend or something. Well I don't have time for that. Too busy, serious! And it's neither my crush or something. Well could be and could not be....I don't know. With that, you got a clue that, that "someone" is a girl. After her message, I could study, but I was just too excited about what she said. You know it's like WOW!..That was the first sms from her. You know what she said? She just simply said good luck for your exams, don't stress yourself, sleep early, all those stuff. That's all! Then why am I so excited? Well there's a reason. And that reason came about with another "girl" who walked into my life. Confusing right? Well don't get confused, the answer will be coming quite soon. watch out for SPG.....haha go and wonder what's that? [ure gripped].......

The new Habit......

I actually forgot that I have created a blog account. Now, I'm tryin to patch up with this crazy habit of BLOGGING. I have already got alot of bad habits in the internet. Do not think anything chicky. I mean bad habits like MSN, Habbo hotel, and lots more. Now I'm learning this Blogging habit. Why I'm saying bad habit is because teens like me tend to hook up into things like this and sometimes slack in thier studies. Now also I'm studyin for my Exam tomorrow and writing this. You see this is how people like me get spoiled. But thanks to my bro Praba. He is the culprit who actually influenced me to this, not laterally, but I got attracted by lookin at his blogs. So I have started this new habit and let's see how this comes up. [ure gripped].......